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Saturday, 23 July 2011

Saturday July 23, 2011

"Well, that's your opinion, isn't it? And I'm not about to waste my time trying to change it."- Lady Gaga!

You know what hurts most? The seconds in the morning where you've just woken up, and for those mere precious seconds, you've forgotten the reasons you're unhappy; the reasons you're so broken. And then it hits you again, like a stab to the heart, and you remember all the reasons you didn't want to wake up. Yeah, that hurts.

I put him first, I thought he'd stay, but he couldn't weather the storm, so he left me here in the rain.

The question isn't who's going to let me, it's who's going to stop me.

If you feel it necessary to judge me on my past then don't get mad when I feel it necessary to put you there.

Tell a girl she's beautiful & she will believe it for a moment. Tell a girl she is worthless & she will believe it for the rest of her life.

I'll forget the world that I once knew,
But I swear I won't forget you.

Do you remember when we first met? The way you looked, I can't forget. I smiled at you & you smiled back. It felt just like a heart attack.

I still love you, that's a fact. But a million apoligizes can't bring me back.

Wednesday, 13 July 2011

Wednesday July 13, 2011

Don't give up, okay? I know you've been hurt, I know how it feels. Believe
me, I do. But the feeling will pass. The tears will stop falling. Your heart
will heal itself. I promise you it will, so hold on. Don't let go, don't lose
hope because I promise you'll find someone who will treat you right the
way he never did. Someone who will never ever leave you, the way he
did. He'll be worth the wait, so hang in there because I love you and
I want you to be happy.

It's late nights like this that are the worst. You stay up all night, & can't get yourself to fall asleep, so all you do is think. Think about everything. Everything that you have been through in your life. And as always, it's mostly the bad things that stand out the most. You reminisce the good times you've had with people that no longer exist in your life. You think about how much happier you used to be & how everything was better before. It's nights like this when you realize just how lonely you are, and how you wish that things would be alright for once.

Stop saying you’re sorry. You want to know something? I knew. I knew you didn’t feel that way about me. I knew, and I still let it happen because, well, I figured that one night with you was better than never. So will you stop saying you’re sorry? Because you didn't know better, but I did.

Because maybe, just maybe, he felt something for her, something real and true and wonderful and something he could not deny, no matter how many jokes he made about it. Maybe he was here because he loved her.

You should’ve seen me after you dumped me. I was a mess. I was more than a mess. I couldn’t focus. I didn’t eat. I never slept. But after awhile, I started to build myself out of the mess you left me in. And now look at me babe. I’ve never been better. It’s true what they say about coming back stronger. ©standstill_lookprettyy

Sometimes there is no next time, no time-outs, no second chances; sometimes it's now or never.

I think one of the worst feelings in the world, right behind heart break, is that disgustingly empty feeling you get, right after you spill your heart out and lay all your cards on the table. Right after you get the courage to say everything you have been feeling and be completely and recklessly honest. Its that feeling you get right after you risk everything, and he just walks away. Because then you realize that you just lost. You lost everything you didn't even know you had when you said "what do I have to lose?"

How long can you go pretending were fine without him? How many lies can you tell your best friend? How many smiles you can fake when your trying so hard not cry? How many texts have you wanted to send, just to say that one last I love you? When does it come the point when you just can’t take it anymore.

I push doors that clearly say PULL, I laugh harder when I try to explain why I'm laughing, I walk into a room and forget why I was there, I get emotional over little things, I wish for love every 11:11, I lie sometimes to hide the pain, I say it's a long story when it's really not, I fall in love too hard too fast, I worry about too much, and get taken for granted. But that's what being a girl is.
Tuesday July 12, 2011

It doesn't hurt me that I'm losing you, it hurts me because I know you're not fighting to keep me.

I needed something to go right so badly that I convinced myself it was real. Even though I think, deep down, I knew it wasn't. I think I knew he was going to leave, I just didn't want to believe it.

Rock bottom is a beautiful place to start. Rise up to show the world your scars.

If you're planning to let me go today, make sure you'll never come back tomorrow.

Open your eyes, look within. Are you satisfied with the life you're living?

I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you.

The ones depressed don't dress in black. The ones who believe they're fat don't announce it. The ones scared don't scream. The ones struggling don't show their scars. The ones hurting the most are the ones hidden.

If you can look me in the eyes and tell me that I don't matter, if you can kiss my lips and feel nothing inside of you; if you can hold my body close and say you love her more, then you can walk out of my life forever. And please, don't look back.

I hate the fact that I stayed with you even when I shouldn't have. I hate that I stood up for staying with you even when I looked like an idiot. I hate that you don't even care. I hate that you said forever. I hate that you lied. I hate that you built me up and tore me down. I hate how when I said forever I meant it. I hate how you controlled the relationship. I hate that I care so much. I hate that I still love you. I hate that I shouldn't. I hate the fact that you don't want to be with me. I hate the fact that I'm here without you. I hate the fact that you're there and you couldn't care less. I hate that I don't hate you. And it sucks.

Monday, 11 July 2011

Monday July 11, 2011

Just because you're breathing doesn't mean you're alive.

Just remember, when you're at his house undressing, you're just another girl about to learn her lesson.

As soon as my heart stops breaking , the tears are fading . As soon as forever is through , ill be over you.

No, slut. The reason that all the boys like your photo isn’t because you’re pretty. It’s because you’re almost naked.

I was just another promise that you couldnt keep.

When you're down - I may not be able to pick you up. But I promise I'll be the one to lay down right next to you.

It’s not because I don’t care. It’s because YOU don’t.

"Now you can go,
And you can leave.
I wouldn't blame,
You for a thing.
I acted like,
I never should."
- Safetysuit

I smile because when I cry, it doesn't help. When I cry, all it does is make people ask me if I'm okay. I would love nothing more than to punch these people in the face. I'm sitting here, crying, but yes, I'm perfectly happy. I mean, come on. Give me a break. Obviously I'm not fine.

Sunday, 10 July 2011

Sunday July 10, 2011

The day you wake up realizing I'm the girl for you, I'll be laying next to the boy who already knew.

The hardest thing about knowing that you don't love me, is that you spent so much time pretending that you did.

You stupid boy, you always had to be right; but now you lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive.

I screamed every hurtful word that I could think of. And what killed me is that they didn't hurt you at all. You didn't care what I said; you never have.

You've labeled your whole lifestyle and changed the way you dress. Now take a good look in the mirror and tell me who you're trying to impress.

I don't recall giving you a reason to hate me, you create your drama based on pure jealousy.

The most beautiful smile is the one that struggled through all the tears.

When your throat starts to burn, and your heartbeat speeds up, when your stomach tightens, and your lungs close up, when your tears rush to your eyes faster than you ever dreamed possible, that's the worst pain you will ever feel. That's your heart breaking.

You said "I never meant to hurt you" But you and I both know that doesn't really matter.